Top, c/o Rosegal (sold out, similar here) | Shorts, Kohl's | Tights, Vera Wang at Kohl's | Boots, Sears
This cat top was sponsored by Rosegal. All opinions are my own. I am definitely delighted by the quality and fit of the top and think it's worth your time to check Rosegal out. You can find a wide array of trendy items under $20. Besides, this top has a cat face on it. Can you really resist?
My thoughts have been much too heavy and convoluted lately to accompany an outfit post. I often struggle to delicately balance fashion and writing. I want to begin posting more writing-dominated posts, so I'll see if I can sort my thoughts out well enough for a coherent musings post in the near future.
My tangible thoughts aren't exactly light either. Have you ever wondered where you would be today if something had happened differently in the past? That's probably why I often struggle to make decisions--if something goes wrong, you only have yourself to blame. Even something as simple as picking a dessert can give me trouble. Should I have the brownie, or the ice cream? What if I go for the ice cream and it's bad? Or what if I eat the ice cream and later decide I actually wanted the brownie?
The obvious solution would be to just eat both. But what if both isn't an option? (And to be honest, I'm pretty stickler about a balanced diet since I run haha). Like, say, taking a risk, speaking the unspoken, pursuing an opportunity. Most of the time in these cases, you can't do both.
How would my life be different if I hadn't decided to run a charity 5k to help my friend's mother with cancer five years ago? What kind of person would I be without running? What would've happened if I hadn't moved in 5th grade? What would I be doing if I hadn't picked up violin eight years ago? How would I see life differently if I hadn't met specific friends? Where would I ramble if I hadn't begun blogging in middle school?
It's absolutely crazy how one event can mold your life in such a profound way. Maybe that's why college prospects seem so scary. Can where you decide to go to school impact your life forever? My old English teacher doesn't believe so. She says that everyone ends up doing what they're supposed to do in the end. Perhaps we overly romanticize the college search. I'd like to believe so. It's simply one cobblestone on the road of life. And hey, I've taken plenty of detours already--I'll find my way back if I get lost. Besides, I'm laying the stones down myself. There is no "lost."
My greatest fear is that I'll go to an in-state university, get a degree, find a job, meet a nice guy, get married, settle down, have kids. And stay in my hometown forever. That's horrifying. What could I have seen? Who could I have met? What could I have I experienced? There's so much out there past the familiar. I can't be content with simply knowing a small fraction of the vast world. There's nothing wrong with going to an in-state university--sometimes it's the best fit and most cost-effective. There's nothing wrong with my hometown--I take a lot of pride in it. Besides, if I do stay for higher education, there's always study abroad. There's also really nothing wrong with the progression I described above--it might sound perfect to most people. But it's intrinsically wrong for me, a dreamer with unquenchable wanderlust.
I want to know what's out there. I want to unleash potential I didn't know I had. We don't know what our true boundaries are unless we push past the routine. Sometimes I feel like society compels us to believe that the sole purpose of life is to go to college, get job, get married, and have kids. No. There's so much more than that. But that "more" is relative; it's something uniquely our own, what we discover for ourselves.
So, brownie or ice cream? What haven't you had in awhile? What's new to you? Perhaps we retreat too often to the familiar when faced with uncertainty. But you know what? We learn so much about ourselves when we immerse ourselves in the unfamiliar. What dessert are you missing out on because you're afraid to make a decision? Perhaps those aren't even your only options. Are there more?
There is always more. We just need to open our eyes, and follow our hearts.
As a liberal arts student/endurance athlete/violinist/fashion enthusiast, I find beauty in many spheres. Consequently, I have no idea where life will lead me. Here is where I document my journey to creating myself--soul-baring reflections, embarrassing photos, and all. Feel free to join me for the ride.