Left: Top, Burlington Coat Factory | Cardigan, Macy's | Leggings, Burlington | Boots, Burlington
Right: Sweater, Target | Boots, Old Navy | Bag, c/o Sammydress ($19) |Necklace, Maxnina | Hair bow, Rire Boutique
The bag in these photos was sponsored by Sammydress, but all opinions are my own. I find the color cognac truly versatile, and this brown bag is no exception. While the strap is too short to be a cross-body bag, it still makes for a chic shoulder bag with ample room. At $18.78, the bag is a quality steal--I love the luxe glossy sheen. Be sure to check Sammydress out--as an Asian wholesale retailer, they have a huge selection of trendy, affordable items.
It best describes my state of mind lately. I feel like I've been floating, observing life from the outside. It's so surreal.
A boy in my grade passed away earlier this week. I had only talked to him once, before the ACT, but I remember that he was an engaging conversationalist with a genunine smile. He had the rare charisma that brightened each person's day. He wore cowboy boots to school, not caring that they made him stand out.
He committed suicide.
The announcement at school was so unnerving. Many of my classmates had just seen him a couple days ago at our winter formal dance. What a harsh jolt to reality. Only three more months, and he would've graduated. Then began college. Then entered the real world.
He was an only child. And I can still hear the mournful cries of his faithful dog at his candlelight vigil.
I didn't know him well, so I decided it would be flippant to attend his funeral. I feel guilty even writing about it in this post, but I mean for this blog to encompass my entire life, the frivolous and the profound, and this tragedy has forced me to come to terms with reality.
It's another painful reminder that life is so precious. It's another reminder to grasp each opportunity before it disappears. It's another reminder to acknowledge how much your loved ones mean to you. It's another reminder to renounce going through the motions and just live.
I've decided to take a month and a half blogging hiatus from March 5th to April 17th, coinciding with Lent, the bulk of track season, and college decision time. Social media has been making me feel funny lately, and this event only encourages me to step away from the computer screen. More details will follow in the next post.
Life hasn't been all lugubrious lately though. It's heartbreaking news one day, happy the next. I'll have to be vague until April, but there's life for ya.
Anyways, these thoughts are for all those who are struggling. Who fiercely try to search for light in darkness, but come up empty-handed. For the people whose lives appear flawless on the outside, but face complete internal turmoil. For the people who question their worth and purpose. For the little boats looking for a harbor (reference to Death of a Salesman, Arthur Miller).
There is light. There is hope. There is purpose. There is a somewhere you belong. Keeping looking. Stay strong.
I'll leave you with this quote. It's getting late, so I'll reply to comments tomorrow. I hope you know that I love you guys and cherish the friendships I've formed via blogging. I care about each and every one of you, and if you ever need anything or just want to chat, don't hesitate to shoot me an email.
"Death leaves a memory no one can heal, but love leaves a memory no one can steal." --an Irish epitaph