March 17, 2015

Artsy Endeavors + Life Updates: I Chose a Major

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All (well, almost all) photos from my instagram

Before I came to college, I thought I was a humanities person.

I emphatically rejected all possibilities of studying anything other than English, Philosophy, History, or Amherst's special major Law, Jurisprudence, and Social Thought. I reveled in the nuances of writing, the mind-boggling questions, the countless intriguing stories. I vowed to break the Asian stereotype by shunning quantitative fields. I wanted to search for what I truly wanted to study--not what society, my parents, or friends told me I should study.

Earlier last week, I declared a double major. Ironically enough, one of them was math.

After a tumultuous fall semester of a humanities-heavy schedule, I came to appreciate the concrete. When my papers frustrated me, I retreated to my problem sets. It was comforting to know that there was an answer, one that was absolutely right and couldn't be interpreted otherwise. It was satisfying to wrestle with a mystifying, complex problem and emerge triumphant.

As the semester progessed, I realized that in my fervent efforts to reject any external influences, I had also renounced part of myself. While I love expressiveness, I am also undeniably left-brained; I obsessively analyze all possible outcomes before making decisions, I analogize the abstract to the concrete, I prefer routines or predetermined methods.

So, in an attempt to unite both sides of me, my simultaneous predilection for the humanities and quantitative reasoning, I declared math and French.

I'm nervous about whether the formality of declaring will make me feel more pressured to perform well, but I'm really grateful to have a direction for my undergraduate years, advisors I know well, and majors in fields I'm enthusiastic about.

I can't lie and say I know exactly where I'm going with these majors, but I would still like to go to law school. Given my current understanding of the field, I think law will suit me well, since it's a fusion of logic and rhetoric. We'll see where life leads me--after all, for me, the purpose of college is not to become marketable. I believe that I'm at college to learn and grow as a person, and the rest will follow.

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  1. These photos are stunning. Those donut shaped chocolates looks sooooo adorable & tasty.

    :] // ▲ ▲

  2. Congrats on finding your majors, choose what works best for you! College is a great time for that. Cool pictures, I really want donuts right about now :)

    - Che

  3. I really don't understand the US uni system! Well done for knowing what you want do though!

  4. Александра ЗахароваMarch 19, 2015 at 3:51 PM

    We never know what fate awaits us, anything can happen on this life path. But at the same time we should always learn something new and improve our skills. This world, traditions, fashion, whatever, everything changes and develops, so we should do the same. I believe, you are already a very smart and special girl, gifted in many scopes of activity, so keep it up! I love what you wrote there, it proves that once again.

    Besides, you have wonderful photographic skills, if all those those pictures are taken by you. I love each of them, them are so artistic!

    Have a nice day!

  5. Oooh, this is fascinating Lily! French and Math...what a combination - a smart one in my opinion. Definitely don't focus too much on one side of you, lest the neglected portion will start to negatively affect you. As you found out, apparently! Glad you're learning and growing - college can do that to you haha! I've found that the most valuable education you can receive is the one where you are actively stretching your mind in ways you may never have before (not necessarily in the standard, academic style either).

    Anyway, I believe in you girl, you're going places! :)

    Also, these artsy photos make me all warm and fuzzy inside just looking at. Love them!

    Thanks for the encouragement you've been giving me as well, it's been so uplifting seeing your comments. <3 We can get through this college thing!! *insert fist punching emoji here because I'm so pumped* :P

    The Dragonfruit Diaries

  6. Thanks, Kezzie! I can see how it might be a bit confusing, haha. I'd love to learn more about the British system!

  7. Yup, I took all of these photos over a span of a few months! Thanks so much, Alexandra. You're always so insightful!

  8. Thank you so much, Linda! You're such a gem.

  9. No matter what decisions you make in life, you are certainly strong enough and determined enough to make the most of anything that comes your way. I certainly wish you the best in all of your adventures. Just remain strong and hopeful and work to make whatever dreams and visions you want to come true.


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