March 12, 2015


leopard print dress
leopard print dress
Dress, H&M | Top, thrifted Target | Shoes, Keds | Necklace, Nordstrom BP

The deep, pensive note erupted into a furious minor scale before subsiding to a whisper. The final pitch of the second phrase lingered in air for just a moment. Then, there was silence.

It was late at night, and I was alone in the rehearsal room of the music center. I was alone because thesis rehearsal had been cancelled, but I had missed the group message. I was alone, but I was happy.

The large, empty room had been a bit eerie at first, but I soon found it liberating. Because of the pressure of performance, I hadn’t felt this raw connection with music in a long time.Yesterday’s orchestra concert, for example, had been deeply disappointing—I had been so anxious after spotting my Russian lit professor in the front row that I hadn’t been able to enjoy playing.

Here, none of that mattered. I wasn’t afraid of wrong notes. I didn’t feel obligated to project a polished image. The absence of expectations and fear is freedom—and that’s exactly what I found.

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  1. I always love finding an empty lab at school, because the sense of freedom and having no fear of anyone observing your process and judging what you may be working on is the best feeling. I know exactly what you mean Lily! Glad you found that happiness and connection with your music again.

    Hope things are looking up for you girly, you've been in my prayers of late <3

    Love the look here by the way. My eyes lighted up when they landed on that cheetah print dress! Such a fun piece to rock :D

    The Dragonfruit Diaries

  2. Aww you look so cute!

    I hope your music will be better :-)

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  3. Александра ЗахароваMarch 13, 2015 at 6:47 AM

    The absence of fear is truly freedom, I can't but agree more! I've got to say when I read this post, I caught myself on the idea that it's a piece out of the book!

    In addition, those photographs turned out so great;) I haven't seen you for a long time, Lily, and it's a bit surprising for me that you have your hair cut now, but I do like this change in your appearance:) You look stylish!

    Wish you a great day ahead!

  4. Aww, you're absolutely the sweetest, Linda! Thank you for everything--your prayers and kind words. With the weather brightening up, I have been feeling a bit better. Hoping your transition is going smoothly too! I can't wait to catch up on my blog reading after my weekend trip!

  5. So good to hear from you, Alexandra! You're always so kind. I look forward to stopping by your blog soon :)

  6. I love what you're saying here and I can totally picture the situation in my head. and your last thought - that's very true. we can fuss and panic and make things worse and harder (I know I sure do that, unfortunately). but the moments when we're able to let go and enjoy this very moment are priceless and pure. I definitely hope I will be so much better at this because right now I rather make my life harder with all the worrying I've been lately going through.
    oh and Lily, I also love seeing leopard print on you! that's something new in your outfits! and it goes really well with your dark hair. and this little touch of gold is a nice accent here. it's a lovely ensemble in front of all that snow (we have no snow by the way :D).

    Maiken - Part of me

  7. oooh perfectly loving this dress tho!! =)

    xo, Carla

  8. Wow... I'm behind on posts here! Anyhow, the dress and the necklace are my favorite pieces here. The sneakers are pretty cool. Nice outfit here!


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